I always fail to date even though I’m addicted to love. It’s a story that I trace the source of my loneliness because I can’t embrace it.

I’m the protagonist and director of the documentary film, and I’m addicted to love. Since moving to Seoul at age 20 to pursue my dream, I’ve been in four consecutive relationships in the space of 4 years. Although I always dream of a beautiful romance, things have been difficult. I suspect that my boyfriend does not love me if he fails to act according to my wishes. My fourth boyfriend, whom I believed to be my true love, left me saying “You’re too selfish and only want to be loved without giving love in return.”
Unable to overcome the emptiness, I set out to find someone else. Using a dating application, I meet up with three new guys a week and ask myself a series of questions. Why am I so lonely? Where did my desire to find perfect love come from?
Am I destined to be alone? Are INFPs prone to loneliness? Or, is it because of my mother who chose death and left me when I loved her more than anyone else in the world? Will I be able to trace the source of my loneliness?

I have a disease. Despite all the love I have, I cannot love anyone. I want to be loved but cannot be loved. Such is the nature of my disease. It’s called loneliness. This documentary is a record of loneliness. I want to avoid it if I can. Yet, everyone in the world is lonely. If I can’t avoid it, I might as well try and enjoy it. Let’s face the loneliness that haunts me. Have you ever thought about the source of loneliness? In order to trace the source of loneliness that gnaws at me, I unfold my existence and delve into my memory. Your loneliness is different from mine. However, the moment you discern a shared feeling, you, too, will find a clue. The goal is not simply to reduce loneliness. Through loneliness, I understand “myself” and “us.” Loneliness makes me weak sometimes, but I accept it as part of life. After all, your loneliness is yours alone.